So now that I hit the “STOP” button on the treadmill of life, jumped off for a break, and am ready to move in a new direction, I cannot tell you how much better I feel. Physically and mentally. Literally, my stomach stopped hurting as it has pretty much ever since I “decided” I was going to shoulder this job that I didn’t want. I haven’t felt this motivated or empowered in a long time, and I feel like I have my life back to me.
And of course, I have a plan. It would be unlike me not to have a plan, but sometimes you just have to jump without knowing all your options, right? So I was thinking about what lay ahead in the future for me, thinking about what I have done in the past and whether I cared to return to that place. Which I really don’t. I am not ready to grasp at straws yet.
I want to enjoy work and be motivated to do it. And as I looked around at what inspires me, the answer became pretty obvious. I want to help people achieve their goals and dreams. What I love about teaching adults is helping them on the path to reach their goals. I share their feeling of accomplishment that they have when they finish their course successfully or pass their GED exam or learn more about reading or math or grammar or anything. I want to do that all the time, and if I can’t do it always in a school setting, then there are other places I can do that.
Becoming a personal trainer will fit in with what I love to do, and it is extra special to me because I know about struggling with my weight, my self-confidence, and all the mental BS that held me back for many years. With my students in my adult ed classes, I still have a hard time relating to their struggle because I never struggled in school. But losing weight, getting fit? I know A LOT about that struggle. I want to help people enjoy becoming athletes if they want because I know how much joy racing and triathlons give me, and if I can share that passion with someone, that would be awesome!
I know it isn’t going to be easy, and maybe it seems cliché, but I am determined and I know I have the intelligence and motivation to do this thing right. And it is so gonna happen because the right reasons are keeping me moving forward toward my goal.